our hopes and expectations/black holes and revelations

The first time I saw your face
I was blown away without a trace
I felt so alone on a busy street
when you passed me by
I felt my feet melt away
Melt away

I pray to God I could meet
Someone like the boy I'd just seen
Someone that could stop me dead
Someone that could spin around in my head all day
In my head all day

Someday I will fly with you
Someday I will fly with you

That night I saw him again
It was the first time I touched his hand
He made me feel so warm
We talked all night 'til the dawn came our way
Til the dawn came our way

But the timing was all wrong
When I met the one I should've known
Instead I walked away leaving behind my destiny on that day
My destiny on that day

Someday I will fly with you
Someday I will fly with you

But I still see his face
In my mind it's the only place
And we will meet again
And I will touch your hand again on that day
Your hand again on that day

Saturday, November 08, 2008

Urghh am feeling dizzy now. I touch the spot beneath my eyebrows and my head just throbs in giddy pain.

I am just back from a sort of secschgang reunion. It was pretty impromptu and we only figured out the details this afternoon. weirdddd. In the end we went Marina Square. For 'dinner'. I was the only one having a real meal. The others were wolfing down dessert, for heaven's sake. TBH I felt a bit alienated because they seem to be living in a whole different world now. All they could talk about was stuff like PW and oral presentations. I could barely get a word in. Hello coool it already. Its their holidays now - it's a bit sad to go on and on for hours about your project work presentation when it's done, isn't it? But I guess JC people don't really have lives so they don't have much to talk about. Yes I'm being a bit mean but I'm telling it as it is. Oh very well yes I am a little annoyed with them. It's no fun meeting pals and them having a competition to see whose PW presentation was the most screwed up and they don't seem to care that you're at sea three quarters of the time. But yes it's pretty hard for me to relate to them now. I think I'm too used to my life now to remember what it used to be like and go back there. I'm judging them now. It's scary. Sighhhhh. They go on about how we must meet more often and we have to plan the next meeting everytime we meet, etc, and I don't know. Sometimes there's just a long awkward silence none of us can fill. I don't want to hold on just for old times' sake. I want to meet up with them because I genuinely want to see them.

Lighter note aside, I bought a mood necklace from Diva. Haha. So 70s and groovy, but I was sorta bored. It does change colour. I didn't get how it works so I read up online and apparently it is a sort of liquid crystal that responds to your body temperature which changes with your mood. The necklace is now a lavender-blue which means I'm somewhat relaxed? I think. I'm still not sure. Haha. When I was in Diva it was dark blue which means I'm happy. So now you know what triggers my hohohoho mood.

i thought the world of you
11:46 PM